Main aur meri hot bag…

…aksar ye baatein karte hai,
agar ye sar dard na hota toh kaisa hota….

I finally went to the doctor today. Every morning, about an hour after I wake up, the sinuses just work up and give me a splitting headache. Today the pain was so intense that I thought the nerve above my left eyebrow would explode, the hammer just kept on beating! The doc gave me antibiotics but she said that even without the medicine, it would go away in a week. No way am waiting that long.

It’s afternoon now and the hammering has come down to the dull thud, but it’s not gone. This is perhaps the best time of the day when the pain is at the lowest. It will all start again tomorrow!


Life right now…

…is messy.

Rant alert—————

What’s the downside of marriage? – you have to take into consideration your spouse’s opinion on all matters! Especially if he’s a nosy one who likes to provide advice on matters unasked. What do you do when you don’t wish to let him down and don’t want to do what he says either. Well, for me I do as per his wishes and then regret for not standing firm on my opinion and giving in. This all results in passive aggressive anger which blows things out of proportion at some later event.

I hate it when people have different standards for everyone. Why can’t they judge a situation with the same standards. I don’t understand how a different justification is applied to a loved one and a different rule is applied to another relative. Why the hypocrisy? In the end it’s all about lying to oneself. You keep your conscience clean by attaching yourself to different rules/principles/standards in different situations. You don’t take the ownership of your fault and hide under some shammy principle that you are ready to ignore in other situations. To hell with all such people!

And what is with this patronizing attitude? You want a thing done, you get it done on your own merit. Stop putting guns on another’s shoulder. He/she may not want what you want or may not wish to do it. But stop pressuring and patronizing the person just because you can and just because you know you can.

———-rant over!

Jalapeno peppers, apparently are the best remedy for sinuses problem. When you have tried everything to stop the headache (it’s been four days now), you are ready to do anything that even remotely sounds like a cure. After having this prolonged headache from Monday, (self diagnosis says it’s a sinuses thingy) I didn’t know what to do. Read somewhere today that spicy food helps relieve sinus headaches. No harm in trying out. Apart from the tangy, hot, sweet flavour lingering in my mouth, nothing happened. But I realised how desperate I had been. Then, I tried the steam. I know I should have done it the first time that nerve started ticking, but the lazy bum that I am, I waited four head splitting days. And yet, after 15 minutes of holding my head over boiling water, nothing happened.